afraid to fall so deep, i guess?

this is my first time to write about my personal life. and firstly, i am terribly sorry. i have been busy lately and i really don't have time to write, open my blog, even turn on the computer. pretty pathetic i guess.
well, actually, there's a lot of things happened lately. i just entered a stupid-busy-organization (and yes i regret) in my university. i am so depressed that the project given almost took over all my time.
then, i met someone. of course this person is a he. lol.

this guy really does crack me up! he gives all his attentions, loves, cares, everything to me. even he picks me up and drives me home. maybe God sends me angel. :)
unfortunately, he's still on his past. he's still into his ex. and what makes me sad the most is he tells me he loves me. it hurts me, deeply.
who am i? am i just a bus stop for you? you just drop by and get ready to off to the next station. is that so?

am i stupid? i have let go everything. even i have left someone that has stayed in my life for 2 years just for you.
am i stupid? i have let my heart fall for you.
am i stupid? i have told you i love you.
am i stupid? damn, i fall for you.

should i let you go? i just can't.

when i am thinking over this mess, a song flows in my heart.

Set You Free

a song by MYMP

We often fool ourselvesAnd say that it’s loveOnly cause when it’s gone We end up being lonelySo how are we to know That it just isn’t soThat we just have to let each other goThere were many timesWhen we shared precious momentsBut later realized they were only stolen momentsSo how are we to know That it just wasn’t soThat we just had to let each other go

If loving you is all that means to meWhen being happy is all I hope you’d beThen loving you must meanI really have to set you free

Each day remains my love for youKeeps growing stronger But everytime we meetMakes leaving you so much harderSo how are we to know That this just wasn’t soThat we just have to let each other go
If loving you is all that means to meWhen being happy is all I hope you’d beThen loving you must meanI really have to set you freeLetting go is not an easy taskWhen smiling feels likeI must wear this lonely maskIt hurts deep inside And I just cannot hideThat there’s anguish at the thoughtThat we should have to part

If loving you is all that means to meWhen being happy is all I hope you’d beThen loving you must meanI really have to set you free

If loving you is all that means to meWhen being happy is all I hope you’d beThen loving you must meanI really have to set you free



you can listen it in here <3

:')